Work, Work, Work!

Tully and I survived our first week back at the boutique. I must admit, I was super nervous about being there all day by myself with him. However, I am pleasantly surprised at how well he adjusted. And I'm proud to say we even made it there on time!

This week we managed to work on new inventory....that process consists of unpacking, tagging, steaming, adding to the point of sale, and uploading to the website. Oh, and a photo shoot somewhere in there too. I also had to tell a couple of people that, no, they couldn't hold my baby. I told them in the nicest way possible....Tully doesn't do well with strangers....all while he's giving them the cutest gummy smile ever and giggling at them. Oh well, maybe they bought it. Either way, I'm. Not. Okay. With complete strangers holding my baby.

Now that we've made it through our first week of work, we're going to relax and enjoy the beach for the last time this summer. The weather is supposed to be nice and Tully has a super cute bathing suit he needs to wear before summer is over and he outgrows it. I'm pretty sure he is going to LOVE the beach this time. He could have cared less about the beach during our last few trips, but now that he loves anything outside, it should be fun.

Hope you all have a wonderful Labor Day weekend. Here are a few of my favorite pictures of Tully from this week!

Renovating and Rebranding

Finally! There are some big and exciting changes coming to Downtown Diva. After over 3 years in our current space, we finally got the approval for a new floor. Can. Not. Wait. for that to happen.....next week. The boutique will be closed for a few days while the new floor is being put in. We are also making some minor changes....painting projects and hanging new lights. It's a good thing my hubby is on vacation next week. His honey-do list keeps growing and growing.

Along with the renovations, I'm rebranding everything. I designed a new logo and I'm working on new marketing items. I love the way it pops and it carries the same them as the store with the yellow stripes. Now to reorder new labels and bags to make it official! ;)

 

Thank goodness for an extended weekend at the beach before all the work that awaits me next week with moving EVERYTHING out of the store and my baby boy getting his shots. I'm dreading that more than anything. He was so pitiful last time and I have a feeling it's going to be worse this go-round be cause he is more aware of his surroundings. Poor baby. Here's one of my favorite pictures from his 3 month shoot. He's growing way to fast!

Love that boy!

 

Don't forget to check back to see pictures of the newly renovated DD! Have a happy and safe Labor Day weekend!

 

 

 

It WIll Change Your Life

I came across this essay online and just wanted to share. It pretty much says it all! Be sure to grab a tissue.

"We are sitting at lunch one day when my daughter casually mentions that she and her husband are thinking of "starting a family." "We're taking a survey," she says half-joking. "Do you think I should have a baby?"

"It will change your life," I say, carefully keeping my tone neutral.

"I know," she says, "no more sleep...ing in on weekends, no more spontaneous vacations."

But that is not what I meant at all. I look at my daughter, trying to decide what to tell her. I want her to know what she will never learn in childbirth classes.

I want to tell her that the physical wounds of child bearing will heal, but becoming a mother will leave her with an emotional wound so raw that she will forever be vulnerable.

I consider warning her that she will never again read a newspaper without asking, "What if that had been MY child?" That every plane crash, every house fire will haunt her.

That when she sees pictures of starving children, she will wonder if anything could be worse than watching your child die.

I look at her carefully manicured nails and stylish suit and think that no matter how sophisticated she is, becoming a mother will reduce her to the primitive level of a bear protecting her cub. That an urgent call of "Mom!" will cause her to drop a soufflé or her best crystal without a moments hesitation.

I feel that I should warn her that no matter how many years she has invested in her career, she will be professionally derailed by motherhood. She might arrange for childcare, but one day she will be going into an important business meeting and she will think of her
baby's sweet smell. She will have to use every ounce of discipline to keep from running home, just to make sure her baby is all right.

I want my daughter to know that every day decisions will no longer be routine. That a five year old boy's desire to go to the men's room rather than the women's at McDonald's will become a major dilemma. That right there, in the midst of clattering trays and screaming
children, issues of independence and gender identity will be weighed against the prospect that a child molester may be lurking in that restroom.

However decisive she may be at the office, she will second-guess herself constantly as a mother.

Looking at my attractive daughter, I want to assure her that eventually she will shed the pounds of pregnancy, but she will never feel the same about herself.

That her life, now so important, will be of less value to her once she has a child. That she would give herself up in a moment to save her offspring, but will also begin to hope for more years, not to accomplish her own dreams, but to watch her child accomplish theirs.

I want her to know that a cesarean scar or shiny stretch marks will become badges of honor.

My daughter's relationship with her husband will change, but not in the way she thinks.

I wish she could understand how much more you can love a man who is careful to powder the baby or who never hesitates to play with his child.

I think she should know that she will fall in love with him again for reasons she would now find very unromantic.

I wish my daughter could sense the bond she will feel with women throughout history who have tried to stop war, prejudice and drunk driving.

I want to describe to my daughter the exhilaration of seeing your child learn to ride a bike.

I want to capture for her the belly laugh of a baby who is touching the soft fur of a dog or cat for the first time.

I want her to taste the joy that is so real it actually hurts.

My daughter's quizzical look makes me realize that tears have formed in my eyes. "You'll never regret it," I finally say. Then I reached across the table, squeezed my daughter's hand and offered a silent prayer for her, and for me, and for all the mere mortal women who stumble their way into this most wonderful of callings.
Please share this with a Mom that you know or all of your girlfriends who may someday be Moms. May you always have in your arms the one who is in your heart."
Author unknown

A Year.....

**Please note, this was written a while back and I realized I never published it...

As Tully's due date approaches, only a little over 3 weeks away, I'm thinking and reflecting on the past year. My, how things are so different and so much better than I ever imagined. I think about other's too......my dear friends and people whom I've met along this journey and how their life has changed and the struggles with life. Whether it's coping with the loss of a loved one, starting a new job, moving into a new home, or struggling with IF like I was a year ago.


A year ago, I was just getting ready to begin my first IVF cycle. Excited and terrified at the same time. I wasn't sure I would be able to overcome my fear of needles. I wouldn't say I overcame that fear, because even after the hundredth or so injection combined with the frequent blood draws, my fear and anticipation of that 'prick' or 'stick' never went away. Thank goodness for Troy. He was so calm through it all and always found a way to calm me down when the anxiety and anticipation of those injections got the best of me.

When our first IVF cycle brought us so much joy with our first pregnancy and then ended too quickly, I wasn't sure where life would take us. Maybe we just weren't meant to be parents. Maybe God had a different plan for us. We became bitter. We lost 'friends' along the way who weren't able to understand the distance and space we needed in order to accept and cope with our loss and the this new path we were headed down. We built better, stronger relationships with friends who were able to show their compassion and give us 'space' when we needed it.

Thankfully, we decided to give IVF one more try a couple of months later. Little did we know, this would bring us the answer to our prayers....our little Tully.

I'm Going To Miss This

I have never been a morning person....ever. I love 'sleeping in' and I get my best sleep from about 5-8. Luckily, Tully enjoys sleeping late, too. He usually gets up between 8 and 8:30. For someone who used to linger in bed every morning just trying to get '5 more minutes', waking up and waiting and wishing my babe would hurry and wake up seems strange. I love my mornings with Tully. He's the happiest first thing in the morning and we get in a lot of smiles, giggles, and serious conversations. When I head back to work full time (Im there part time now) in a couple if weeks, I'm going to miss these easy, laid back mornings. We are going to have to trade back porch swinging in our pj's, for getting ready in a hurry and making it to the coffee shop before its time for work. With all of this being said, I am very thankful I have a job and even more thankful that I don't have to be there until 10am and Tully can be there with me. The summer is coming to an end and everyone is going to be adjusting to new routines. Here's to new beginnings and savoring every sweet moment of summer we have left!

Here's a sweet pic of my boy in his favorite spot. And yes, he's in his diaper because that's just how we roll.

 

 

Baby's First Trip

We left last Thursday evening for our first big/long trip with Tully. I was super nervous about the long ride because in the past, Tully has proven to HATE his car seat. I knew if we could get through the ride, the rest of the trip would be a breeze. We left in the evening when Troy got off work. After stopping to drop Lexie off with my mom and to grab something to eat, we were off. Tully fell right to sleep as soon as we got going. I was even able to ride up front with Troy for a while! :) Tully slept for a few hours, woke up to eat and be changed, and then went right back to sleep. Is this really my baby?! Then I started thinking we were going to be in for a long night when we finally stopped for the night. Nope! We stopped around 12:30am just a couple of hours outside of Atlanta. Tully ate again and went right back to sleep and slept until 9am! I knew he was an angel before the trip, but he was just trying to prove what I already knew!

We arrived in Atlanta just before noon, got settled into our room and then headed off to market. I had appointments to tend to while Troy played daddy daycare. Troy got to see what all he misses out on while he's at work, including being pooped on! Tully went through 5 outfits that afternoon. I'd say he broke daddy in good!

 

My first appointment was with some of my favorite reps. The Spring 2014 collection is AMAZING! I loved it so much, I pushed up the delivery dates so it will begin arriving in December. I was also happy to learn that some of the companies I order from are changing their policies. With so many online/Facebook 'boutiques' popping up all around, policies need to be in place to protect those of us with storefronts. Customers look at the prices of items at these online only boutiques and then see the prices in-stores and think we are price gouging. That couldn't be any further from the truth. With an actual physical location comes a lot of overhead, AKA bills.....including but not limited to RENT, utilities, payroll for employees, and much more! I met a sweet girl from the western part of NC who has a cute boutique and was all to familiar with the drama that comes with retail. It was nice to network with her and other ladies who all see eye-to-eye. Anyway, my favorite line is enacting a policy that states only brick and mortar boutiques can sell their clothes. Hallelujah! That means anybody and everybody can't buy their line and sell their items from their Facebook page, where they have NO overhead. That's enough about that. Here's a picture of some of their 2014 collection and I am IN LOVE!

Cute shorts, rompers, tops, dresses, and tunics in these cute, cute prints are scheduled to begin arriving at DD in December! I.Can't.Wait.

 

I also ordered a ton of fall inventory that will begin arriving this week and I came back with a big load of accessories. I think this was one of my most successful market trips ever. And in the shortest amount of time!

 

Thankfully, we were also able to fit in a little family time while we were there. We went for an evening walk around Centennial Park and took Tully to his first Braves game. He loved the city. There was so much noise and so much for him to look at. He stayed occupied with the sights and sounds the entire time.

 

 

Tully also loved all of the lights, music, and announcers at the game. We've learned, the louder it is, the happier he is. As soon as we arrived at the game, it started pouring down rain. Luckily, we had not walked out to our seats yet, so we escaped being soaked. One of the nice attendants told us about a certificate we could get at guest services to commemorate Tully's first trip to Braves Country. So neat! The rain finally stopped after about an hour and it was time to watch so ball. We left during the 8th inning hoping to beat the traffic and the score was still 0-0. The Marlins scored during the 9th inning, to win the game 1-0. We are excited to have started this tradition for Tully and can't wait to take him to more games. Daddy is hoping Tully is going to love baseball as much as he does.

 

 

 

That pretty much sums up Tully's first trip (he was good OTW home, too :) ). It was a fun time but we are happy to be home and settling back into our routine.....which now includes WORK. That's right, maternity leave is officially over. Sigh.

 

Thanks for reading. Have a blessed day!

 

 

 

 

 

 

When I Grow Up....

When I grow up.....I want to be an interior designer! Ok, not really but I think it would be so much fun to be able to shop for home décor and spend someone else's money while doing it. Since being home on maternity leave, I've wanted to redecorate my whole house. I have made some (non drastic) changes. I finally added window treatments to our family room, repurposed some old furniture, and I'm still working on an Ikea Hack for the guest bedroom.I'll post pictures of those projects sometime later. I also completely redecorated the shop. I L.O.V.E the way it turned out. I am so obsessed with the settee. I really wanted to keep it and use it at home but I really have no place it really 'fits'.....unless I were to change everything and I think Troy would have a fit. So, I'll just keep it at the shop (for now). I am using it as a prop in Tully's 3 month pictures in a couple of weeks. Can't wait to see how they turn out. Anyway, here's a picture of my design board I used for redecorating Downtown Diva and a picture of two of my oh.so.cute employees....Kate and Natalie!

I found the settee at jossandmain.com and everything else is from overstock.com! These are two of my favorite go-to sites for home décor.

 

I'm also working on helping my mom redesign her formal living room. She was wanting to go a little more modern than what she currently has but also keeping a traditional feel. I created a design board for her also. She loves everything but the couch. As soon as she finds a couch she loves, hopefully we will see this room come to life! Here's a peek at her new room....

 

 

Have a great night!!

 

 

 

 

The Blog Gets a New Look!

I've been wanting to start back blogging for a while, but I wasn't sure where to start. Ever since Tully was born in May, I've been making changes at the boutique, redecorating my house, and trying lots of new recipes (thanks to Pinterest). Not to mention, adjusting to being a mom.

As far as the new name, I'm not a 'diva' at all. :) I'm actually super laid back, easy going, and quiet. It just fit since the boutique is called Downtown Diva. The 'dudes' are my husband and baby boy, Tully, who was born May 7th. We can't forget about the dog, Lexie. She was my first baby and the boutique's mascot. Everyone just loved coming into Downtown Diva to visit Lexie. Now we'll have Lexie and Tully. There's really nothing sweeter and nothing people love more than a sweet puppy and a sweet baby boy!

I'll leave you today with a current picture of Tully. Boy has he grown so much since May. I miss him being a teeny, tiny newborn. But it's so much fun to see his personality develop. I melt every time he smiles. I'm pretty sure that smile will get him just about anything he wants from his momma one day.

 

 



32 weeks (almost)

Thinking back over the past week and a half, I can't believe my baby shower has come and gone and all of Tully's things are washed and put away. I. Can't. Believe. I'm. Having. A. Baby. In. A. Few. Weeks. It all seems so surreal. Thinking back to just a year ago this month, I wasn't sure I'd ever have a baby as my doctor revealed that IVF was our last option to try to get pregnant. Now here we are, just about 8 weeks away from meeting our baby boy. Thank you, Lord, for answered prayers.



How far along? 32 weeks

Total weight gain:  As of my appointment last Friday, I was up 11 lbs.

Maternity clothes? Yes and no. I have a few basic maternity pieces but I'm still able to use a lot of my pre-pregnancy clothes.

Stretch marks? No. Fingers crossed it stays this way!

Sleep: Still sleeping really good. Thankful for good sleep still!

Best moment this week: I just love feeling Tully move. I can feel his little foot or bottom depending on his position. It's so cool.

Miss Anything? Nope!

Movement: YES! Best part of everyday!

Food cravings: Starburst Jellybeans.....where have you been all my life?!

Anything making you queasy or sick: No

Gender prediction: We tripled confirmed......baby is definitely a BOY!

Labor Signs: No!

Symptoms: Heartburn, frequent trips to the bathroom, no bladder control

Belly Button in or out? In, but on the verge of poking out

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Beyond happy!

Looking forward to: Finishing the nursery. Okay, it's basically finished other than hanging a couple of things on the wall. I don't know why I keep procrastinating this!

Baby Shower

We had our baby shower on Sunday. I had been looking forward to it and dreading it for so long. Showers have always seemed awkward to me. I felt the same way at my bridal showers. It's just weird sitting in front of a ton of people and opening gifts. On the other hand, I'm so thankful to have had such a nice shower and for all of the wonderful gifts. We had a ton of people who helped give the shower so no one person had to do a lot. Here are a few pictures from the day. I can't believe Tully will be here in 9-10 short weeks. That seems SO close!



29 Weeks.....and I'm a bad blogger!

Everytime I sit down to blog, something always distracts me and I have to tend to whatever who or it is. I actually have 3 drafts that I've started but yet to finish. I may or may not get around to those.

Today, I am 29w1d. Aside from a stomach virus I had two weeks ago that left me with busted blood vessels in my eyes (and still haven't healed), I'm still feeling great. Yes, I'm starting to feel super tired in the evenings and I still have frequent heartburn (at our last ultrasound we could already see hair!), but it's really nothing worth complaining about. I still get annoyed by people who frequently complain about pregnancy. I realize every pregnancy is different and many have it way worse than I have, but no matter how bad it may get I'm thankful everyday for my baby boy and that I get to experience pregnancy. There was a time not too long ago where I didn't know if I'd ever get to experience this and to me, that was way worse than pregnancy could ever be. I guess it's a infertility thing. It seriously consumes your whole life and leaves a permanent scar. I found a link to a great article on Pinterest, of all places. She explains it perfectly and in a way I'm not sure I ever could.....even though it describes my exact feelings. Sometimes it's just hard to put it all in writing.

In other excting news, I had another ultrasound this week. Just a day shy of 29 weeks. I'm pretty sure I'm being biased, but I think my Tully is the cutest.....well most beautiful baby I've ever seen. I even asked my mom and grandma if it was just me or if they thought he was that cute too. Of course, they said they have to agree with me. I guess we are all a little biased towards this baby boy. He has the sweetest chubby cheeks already. I hope he doesn't mind all of the kisses he's going to be getting. I feel like I should warn my family and friends and apologize ahead of time for being a baby hog! :)
Here are a few pictures of our little cutie. We almost didn't get any because he kept his hands AND feet in front of his face the entire time.

 

 

Something else I had planned to do was a weekly update. Here's a Week 29 update. I won't make any promises to do every week from now until Tully is born, but I'm going to try really, really hard! Oh, and I forgot to add, I've sneezed and peed on myself.....twice. I didn't think that would ever happen to me, but it did. Now everytime I sneeze or cough, Troy asks me if I need to change my pants. :)

How far along? 29 weeks

Total weight gain:  As of last Friday, I had gained 9lbs. I gained a lot before I was pregnant, so I've really tried to pace myself. I don't deprive myself. I even have chocolate cake for lunch some days.....especially since I passed my glucose test.

Maternity clothes? Yes. But I can still where my regular pants with a BeBand and I can still where a lot of my regular tops. I'm hoping by the time I'm really big it will be warm enough to just wear maxi dresses. I'd so much rather buy clothes for Tully than myself. Yep, that's happening!

Stretch marks? No, thank goodness. I feel like it's coming though. I check everyday....I also lather up with cocoa butter everyday.

Sleep: I still sleep pretty good. Aside from waking up regularly to go to the bathroom, it's all good. And I always fall right back to sleep.

Best moment this week: Definitely seeing Tully via 3d ultrasound. He looks like he has my chubby cheeks and he has Troy's mouth for sure.

Miss Anything? Nope!

Movement: YES! All the time!

Food cravings: Chocolate! There was one day I really wanted banana pudding. Of course, no where here has any so I settled for a banana cream pie Blizzard from Dairy Queen.....it was just as good!

Anything making you queasy or sick:  No

Gender prediction: We tripled confirmed......baby is definitely a BOY!

Labor Signs: No!

Symptoms:  Heartburn, frequent trips to the bathroom, no bladder control

Belly Button in or out? In, but on the verge of poking out

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Beyond happy!

Looking forward to: My baby shower next weekend and of course holding this sweet boy for the first time!

Have a great weekend everybody!!
xo, Candace

A Letter to Tully

Dear Sweet Baby Boy,

Today I am 22weeks + 5 days pregnant. You are approximately 11 inches long and you weigh about a pound. I'm starting to feel your little wiggle worm self more and more everyday. Everytime I feel you, I always acknowledge you by saying 'hey buddy' or something along those lines or by rubbing my belly. I look forward to feeling you move everyday. Daddy and I have picked everything out for your nursery. I've put a lot of thought into it to make sure it is perfect for a special boy like you. We hope you will love it as much as we do. I find myself going in your room all the time and just looking and your clothes and rocking in your glider. It's my favorite spot in the house. Your big sister, Lexie, has found her favorite spot on the ottoman. She always, always, always lays there when I'm rocking. I can't wait to meet you for the first time in a few months! Love you forever and always sweet boy.

Love,
Mom

 

 

 
 

Future of Blog

I read an online discussion recently where a group of ladies were discussing if, when, and how they were going to tell their children they were conceived via IVF. Of course, everyone was all for telling their children about the journey to get them here. Some ranged from things like using the phrase "I drove to Connecticut 22 times to give birth to you, so you sit down and behave!" to this awesome idea of creating a book from their blog to give to their child once he is older. This is a great idea! I found this website, Blurb, where you can do just that. This will be a great gift for our little man when he's a teenage and mad and accusing us of not caring about or loving him because we won't let him stay out late.....we can give him this book to show him just how much we loved and wanted him even before he was conceived. ;) Ok, I'm kidding. I know a teenage boy probably won't want to read all of the details of our journey, but it will be a neat momento to share with him oneday!

A/S and Almost Halfway

I have lots of updating to do. First off, Baby Thompson is a BOY!! I 'knew' it the whole time....I just had a feeling. His name will be Tully (undecided on a middle name). We have his crib and glider/ottoman for the nursery. It's so comfy and I find myself just going in there and just rocking. My excuse to Troy is that I'm trying to break it in because while it's comfy, it's no ways as comfy as the one I fell in love with in the store. By the time Tully gets here, it will be nice and broken in and absolutely perfect.

I had my 3rd OB appointment this week. We did the anatomical scan and baby boy looks happy and healthy in there. I'll be 17 weeks tomorrow. I can't believe I'm just a few weeks shy of the halfway mark. I always tried to imagine what 'this' would feel like and I have no words to describe it. It's just that good!

Thanksgiving was wonderful and by far m best ever. While I have so much to be thankful for every year, I just felt extra grateful for this little blessing this year.

Here are some pictures of our little buddy!

Friday's Appointment

Friday's appointment went GREAT! Of course, I was as nervous as ever, but baby bean was right on track at 9w1d with a heart beat of 180 bpm! Mom went with me to this appointment, Troy is out of days off. We were able to see and hear the heartbeat and even see baby wiggle around a little AND baby has arms! This was my last appointment in Greenville. I will miss everyone there but I'm relieved I don't have to make the hour and fifteen minute drive. In other good news, my PIO (progesterone in oil) injections are finally complete.....as of last night. My bum is thankful! My first OB appointment is tomorrow morning and I'm hoping to get another peak at Baby Thompson! For now, here's a picture and video from Friday's appointment!

 

8w5d

We are 8w5d pregnant today and this baby bean is finally paid for.....for now! I can't wait to start shopping. I have the stroller picked out and have pretty much decided on a neutral color scheme that will be perfect for a boy or a girl. I'm still thinking boy. I had another baby boy dream a couple of nights ago.

 

 

On another note, I always thought and planned on being able to wear my 'normal' clothes for a while during the beginning of a pregnancy....at least through the first trimester. Well, like everything else during this journey, that didn't go as planned either. I purchased and started wearing my first pair of maternity pants last friday at 8w1d. I will say my ovaries are still swollen and each are the size of an orange. I haven't actually gained any weight on the scales, I'm just super bloated. But, OMG......these pants are the most comfy things ever. I may never go back. ;)

 

My next and last appointment with Dr. Hayslip is on Friday, just for an ultrasound. Then my first OB appointment is next Tuesday. I have been given the okay to stop the progesterone injections on Friday as well. As excited as I should be, I'm acutally a little nervous. My OB has prescribed oral progesterone to supplement me until 12 weeks. I've read the side effects of the oral are a little worse than the shots. I'll let you know which I prefer. :)

 

I'll update after my appointment on Friday. Hoping and praying for good news!

Music To My Ears

We went Friday for our second ultrasound. When the Dr came in, he asked if I was nervous. I'm not sure if he was just assuming or if he could see the red splotches on my chest I seem to get when I'm really nervous. Then he proceeded to tell me he was nervous too. But only a few short seconds later, he said he had GOOD NEWS! We had a heartbeat! I couldn't believe it. I totally went into this appointment expecting the worst.....I guess I'm just used to bad news. Then we HEARD the heartbeat. We were not expecting to hear it at all, so this was a added bonus. Baby's heart was beating at 140bpm and measuring perfectly on track at 7w1d! We are already taking bets on whether it's a boy or girl in there. I say boy and Troy says girl. Either way, we'll be happy.....just praying for a healthy baby. Dr did say it looked like there had been another sac that was dissolving. He said it wouldn't cause any complications and that I may or may not experience some spotting. None so far! I can't believe this is real. It is still super early (I'm 7w5d today) but I'm happy to have made it this far. We are still waiting until the 12w mark to make our announcement. My next appointment is October 5th and this will be my last appointment with Dr Hayslip. My first OB appointment is October 9th. These dates can't get here fast enough!

 

Here is our baby bean at 7w1d!

 

Next U/S....TOMORROW

Our next ultrasound is bright and early tomorrow morning and I'm soooo anxious. Thankfully, Troy has already been approved to have the day off so he can go with me. He works for UPS and getting a day off around there almost takes an act of congress. So, for today, that is one less thing for me to worry about. This week has flown by. Part of me is dying for tomorrow to get here already and then the other part wishes it would never come because I'm terrified of getting bad news. Hopefully oneday soon I'll stop thinking the absolute worst in every situation and actually enjoy being pregnant. I wonder if every appointment will come with the anxiety I feel now. Anyway, I'm feeling great......other than the night time nausea, heartburn, and headaches. It's really not bad at all, all of my symptoms are a sweet reminder that yes I am FINALLY pregnant. I'll update after my appointment tomorrow. Happy Thursday!

My sweet friend Brittany sent me this beautiful frame. I can't wait to put a picture of my sweet baby in it! 

1st Ultrasound at 5w6d

I went for my first u/s yesterday at 5w6d. My appointment was originally scheduled for Friday (6w1d) but they had to reschedule because my Dr wouldn't be there. My options were to go really early, yesterday.....or wait until next when we would see more. Of course, I opted for going sooner rather than later in hopes of seeing something and easing my mind. They told me when I decided to come early, the only thing we would see is how many sacs. I consulted with Dr. Google and found out some people see a hb this early and I part of me was hoping to see something other than the sac. I was a big ball of nerves and didn't sleep a wink the night before. Then we saw it, one beautiful sac. I'm really pregnant. Then the Dr kept looking. Nothing else was there. He said it looked like it could be something in the left side of the sac but it's too early to say for certain and there certainly wasn't a chance of detecting a heartbeat this early. Dr. H seemed really pleased with his findings and assured me it was completely normal. He told me there was nothing to worry about, relax, and he would see me back next Friday. That's 10 whole days! While I'm grateful to have made it this far, Dr. Google got the best of me again. I googled 'empty sac' and it has terrified me. After a little further reading and chatting with some ladies who have been in similar situations, I learned that it is more UNLIKELY to see a heartbeat this early than not to see it. Pretty much, detecting something that is just a couple of mm in size is easy to miss and hard to see on these ultrasounds. My mind is a little more at ease but of course I'm going to be a little worried until next Friday. It's crazy what infertility does to you. Always thinking and anticipating the worst. Here's our first glimpse of Baby Thompson! We can't wait to check him out again next week :)

One Week Later....

 

 

 

....I'm still pregnant! My first HCG level last Friday was 122. That was EXACTLY the same as it was last time, only 3 days earlier. Of course I had to wait all weekend (and a holiday weekend at that!) before I could have it checked again on Tuesday. Then there was more waiting. I had to wait a whole extra day to get the results because I had my bloodwork done in Edenton instead of the hour and fifteen minute drive to Greenville. I was on pins and needles until I heard the nurse say 541!! It has to double at least every 48-72 hours for the pregnancy to be considered viable. Mine had a doubling time of 33.5 hours. Wowza! I wa able to relax a little more after that and after my HPT results that morning. The pregnant line popped up immediately and even before the dye moved all the way across the screen and before the control line. I had never had that happen before. I'm still cautiously excited and will feel better after my first ultrasound next Friday. This will be a viability ultrasound and will tell us what's really going on in there. We will be able to see the heartbeat(s) and know how many babies there are. It all still feels to good to be true, especially after all this time. I feel like at any moment, its all going to be ripped away, again. Wonder if and when I'll ever be able to relax?!

 

PREGNANT! 

 

 

I came home last Friday to this amazing package from my amazing best friend. The cupcakes were delicious! "Every flower that blooms as to go through a lot of dirt." Thank you J!

 

 

Daily progesterone injection. This is no joke and no fun. But will be all worth it in the end!

 

 

You would think that after this many tests I would be convinced this is real. I just need daily reassurance! I'm getting there!

 

Yesterday, I got this great pregnancy care package from my bff. I can't put into words how thankful I am for that girl!

 

This was just too cute not to share!

 

As always, thanks for reading and have a great weekend!

xo, Candace